Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Worthy of its own post

and not to be hidden in the comments section! Thanks to Fr. Gregori for some really good sounding middle eastern recipes! As I was commenting to dh last Sunday night after our visit to a large Antiochian parish for the Sunday of Orthodoxy Vespers...their lenten food is so much better, more advanced, than our paltry American efforts. Here it is:

Alana,

Here are some Lebanese Lentil Recipes for Lent:

These dishes were enjoyed by my family during Lent when I grew up as a Lebanese Melkite Byzantine Catholic:

Mjadra – (Lentil Pottage)

1 cup uncooked lentils
4 cups water
1 large onion, chopped
½ cup olive oil
1/8 t. pepper
1/8 t. cumin
salt to taste
½ cup uncooked rice

Rinse lentils and place in a pan with water. Boil for 20 minutes on medium fire. Sauté chopped onions in oil. Add onions and residue, seasonings, and rice to the lentils. Cover and cook for 20 minutes. Stir occasionally. Serve on a platter – this thickens as it cools. May be eaten hot or cold. Serves 4-6.

Mihshi Waraq – (Lenten Stuffed Grape Leaves)
The Grape Leaves can be purchased in jars at Middle Eastern or Greek food stores:

40-50 grape leaves
1 ½ cups of parsley, finely chopped
1 cup uncooked rice
2 large tomatoes, peeled
½ bunch green onions
1 small onion
½ cup lemon juice
salt and pepper to taste

Finely chop all vegetables except the grape leaves and mix well with the uncooked rice. Place a heaping tablespoon of this mixture on a grape leaf and roll up, make sure the ends of the grape leaves are folded in to secure the filling. Continue until all mixture and grape leaves are used. Arrange the rolls in a pan for cooking. Barely cover the rolls with water. Sprinkle about a tablespoon of salt over the top. Cover the pan and cook on medium heat for about 15 minutes. Add the ½ cup of lemon juice and cook for another 10 minutes or until all liquid has been absorbed.

These can be eaten hot or cold, served with laban as a dip.

Laban – (Laban is a Yogurt dip for the Mihshi Waraq)

1 cup plain yogurt
1-2 cloves of fresh garlic
1 Tablespoon dried mint, or 3-4 fresh mint leaves with stems
1 Tablespoon salt
margarine or butter
1 Tablespoon cornstarch

Mash garlic, mint and salt. Sauté in the margarine or butter. Set aside. Dissolve the cornstarch in one cup of water. Pour in the yogurt and mix well. Place the yogurt and cornstarch mixture into a sauce pan and cook on medium heat stirring constantly. Bring to a boil. Then add the sautéed garlic, mint mixture to the yogurt and mix well.

Place this mixture into individual dipping bowls and serve with the Mihshi Waraq. This will serve 4-6.

Time for some more Lenten Recipes

Lenten (Broccoli) Rice Stuff

This makes a crock pot full...in other words, a vat.

2 cups white rice
1 cup TVP
1 packet Lipton Onion Mushroom Soup Mix
5 cups of water
1/4 cup (Ok, I'll admit it: 1 glug) of canola oil.

Bring the above to a boil, turn down and let simmer until water is absorbed.

Stir in one bag of chopped frozen broccoli and warm until the broccoli is cooked.

Tasty! (Or so they tell me.)

This would also work with peas, or no veggies at all, or any other veggie one might desire.



Pancakes/Waffles (Depending on if the Waffle Maker is clean or not, LOL!)

3 cups flour
3 heaping T. of soy flour
Heaping T. of baking powder.

Mix well.

Add a glug of oil and Rice milk, whisk or beat until the right consistency (thinner batter will make flatter pan cakes and crisper waffles). Cook on medium griddle or in Waffle maker with pam.

These keep nicely in the fridge and can be microwaved for 30 seconds by a kid for breakfast.


Shrimp and Veggie Stir Fry

A couple of tablespoons of cooking oil or pam for stir fry

Bag of mixed veggies (You know, the kind made for stir fries)
small bag of mini shrimp (the already cooked pink kind)
soy sauce to taste
spoon of sugar or splenda
red pepper to taste
corn starch or guar gum

Get oil hot, dump in veggies and soy sauce to taste and let them get started stir frying. Don't add shrimp until veggies almost done, as overcooked shrimp gets rubbery.

Cook until done, add the sugar and red pepper, stir around to blend. Thicken juices with either a bit of corn starch or a tiny bit of guar gum. It's the sugar that makes it taste like something from a chinese restaurant.

Serve over rice.

Alternate: Do the same above but instead of shrimp use garbanzo beans, and instead of soy sauce use curry powder...no sugar for this dish. Also, an onion sauteed into this is so good.

Cinnamon toast made with margarine is a big hit with the kids when we don't allow them dairy.

Pizza made with soy cheese is a good hit with the kids. My ueberpicky son seems to like it better than regular pizza with mozarella cheese. Who knew?

Baked potatoes with margarine and soy bacos.

Monday, February 26, 2007

Lent so Far: The Mercy of God

I just loved going to Liturgy of the Pre-sanctified Gifts on Wednesday night. That's one of my favorite things about lent.

I love the joyous and sober anticipation of Pascha.

I love the prostrations and the prayer of St. Ephraim.

(Ok, a note of explanation so what I'm about to write makes sense: I'm on a special diet ordered by my doctor to control my hypoglycemia and reduce fibromyalgia pain. Therefore I don't fast according to Orthodox practice. My priest told me so. This diet IS my fast.) As SOON as lent started, I began to crave bread like nothing else. When I'm on the strict side of my diet, there IS NO bread, or potatoes, or rice, or grains, or legumes...nothing at all starchy. Not even carrots or onions, two veggies I dearly love and miss. I can tell there is an element of spiritual battle going on that this suddenly became much harder for me. In the past I have always caved in to my desires and used lent as my excuse to eat things I crave like BREAD...not this year. I am determined, by God's grace.

So, my new Mantra this lent: Jesus is my bread.

And this first week of Lent has percolated a thing or two to the surface that I need to work on (that is to say, repent of). Frequent trips to confession are in order. And they are big, core issues in my life. Prayers appreciated.

I seem to be marinating in the Matins prayers these days. Cuppa something hot (low carb, and sugar free of course), and a couple of hot boiled eggs (see explanation above) to keep my hands warm, an afghan and the chilly morning back porch, birds, slanting morning sunlight, Matins and me. And each time, something new pops out. Particularly this morning the words from Psalm 37: "I am afflicted and humbled exceedinly, I have roared from the groaning of my heart. O Lord, before Thee is all my desire, and my groaning is not hid from Thee. My heart is troubled, my strength hath failed me..."

That's so much my reality. Last weekend I was feeling really incredible, physically, and I was so keenly aware that it is ALWAYS the Holy Spirit that gives us strength...both spiritually and physically. It is HE who holds us together, and enables us to do all things. Perhaps this reality is so close to the surface for me right now because of my illness and the fact that this becomes miraculously and tangibly real for me on some days because of it. The physical system is screwed up and I can't always guarantee that good behavior (decent bed time, decent food, decent exercise) will give me the results a human being would normally expect (decent enegry, health, etc). So, this is casting me upon God's mercy, as we all are dependent on His mercy.

And the reality is that we are ALL of us dependent to that extent on God's mercy. Every breath. Every cellular mitochondrial function. Every red blood cell deliverying oxygen through every capillary to each cell: a miracle dependent on God.

And each act of my repentance: dependent on God as well. This, too, I cannot do myself.

Kyrie Eleison!

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Shopping Day

One bank and five stores later....Health food store, Catholic book store, Thrift store, Kroger and Walmort.

I'm tired.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Rx: Insomnia

Yesterday I had a really really really good day. It was like WOW!
Last night I slept from about 11 pm until 1:15 am. Then I woke up.











And no matter what I did, I could not go back to sleep.
I don't think Effexor xr is for me.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Pizza with Soy Cheese

They LIKED IT!!!!!!! 3/4 of the pizza was gone and my pickiest eater declared he'd be having pizza for breakfast in the morning.

Thanks. Be. To. God!

One of my prayers/attempts this lent is to help my kids grow in their fasting discipline. It's hard on them to see Mom on a special diet, but they are growing in this way and their attitudes about it are pretty good.

Meanwhile, the minute lent started, my diet seemed to get MUCH harder, for some reason. Suddenly the bread cravings kicked in big time. So, it feels like fasting to me, too...self denial and all that stuff.

God help us!

Matins

I've found a special place: Away from the noise of the TV during the kid's afternoon show, aways from the temptation of the computer. My back porch. We recently (this winter) had to replace our gutters, as they were incompetent/clogged and falling apart and we had some back-up/leakage problems with water in our crawl space, etc. Part of this repair included getting the roof on our back porch fixed. It was all hugely expensive, but now our crawl space is necessarily dry, and our back porch has a lovely roof. I have an old table out there, and an old rocker and a folding chair.

What a great place to sit, wrapped in a warm afghan, sipping something hot. Just me, the sparrows, cardinals, robins, and God. This morning the sunlight slanted across the yard from the east. The honeysuckle bushes, still brown from winter's frost, is filled with birds of all sorts. I could hear their singing. The lilac bush and the red-bud tree are still asleep. But spring is coming. The birds tell me so.

I see them flitting about, in pairs, gathering nesting materials. One lone smallish cardinal sat on the phone wire that leads into our house and chirped in time to my matins alleluias. We made quite a pair, he and I, and it was nice to have a partner for a few moments. I paused until he was done with his chorus before continuing on alone as he flew off.

So, there is my new special place. I like breathing outdoor air, even if it takes a blanket around the rest of me to stay warm. "Glory to God in the heights, on earth peace, and goodwill towards men...." Today, matins will stay with me all day.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Prayer of St. Ephraim

Oh Lord and Master of my life
do not give me a spirit
of sloth, despair, lust of power and idle talk.
But give rather a spirit
of chastity, humility, patience and love to your servant.
Yes, Lord and King,
grant me to see
my own transgressions
and not to judge my brother.
For blessed are You unto ages of ages, amen.

Phood Philosophy Revisited

Melanie would like my recipes for homemade Ketchup and mayo. This from a post back about eight months ago. Glad someone's reading my archives! It's nice to moderate comments, because that way I don't miss comments on the old ones.

This Ketchup recipe appears in _The Healing Power of Whole Foods_ by Beth Loiselle, p. 262. An excellent cook book, in my opinion.

6 ounce can tomato paste
2 tablespoons raw cider vinegar
3 tablespoons water
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
1/4 teaspoon granulated garlic
pinch each of: cumin, nutmeg, black pepper
pinch of stevia extract optional
1/4 teaspoon prepared mustard

Mix ingredients together and refrigerate in a covered jar. Makes slightly more than 1 cup.

My comment: Yes, folks, these spices are the real deal and this really tastes like ketchup!

Homemade mayo: just do a google search for "mayonaise recipe". There are tons of variations out there. I choose to have mine sugar free, often with a few drops of stevia. The trick is to add the oil very very slowly so that the eggs and oil become properly emulsified. The acid in the lemon juice or vinegar is what "cooks" the eggs. This should be made in small quantities and used quickly, properly refrigerated, etc.

Spring

The weather has turned!

The ten day forecast has highs in the upper forties to mid-fifties range! Lows right at or above freezing. Spring is COOOOOMMMMMIIIIINNNNNGGGGG!!!!!

I'm so happy, happy, happy! about that, can't you tell? Still not warm enough for skirts and sandals, but the weather has turned! I"m so happy about this I'm almost crying, for some reason. Can you tell, I hate winter. I think I have a bit of SAD. I get depressed every stinkin' winter. And in the fall when the cold comes in...PAIN.

Spring is coming. Life will get better.

Woooo Hooooo!

Monday, February 19, 2007

Lent

And so Lent has begun.

I keep asking myself what that's going to mean for me this year, and I keep coming up with one thing: same old same old.

Same being stuck at home with no car.
Same taking care of my niece a couple of days a week.
Same being with my kids.
Same homeschooling.
Same cramming all my errands into Saturdays and showing up at Vespers exhausted.
Same isolation.
Same unfulfilled longing for more prayers with my community of believers.
Same desire for more of God.
Same sins.
Same confessions.
Same body.
Same spirit and soul.
Same food. I'm SO SICK of the food I eat. Same old same old. Day after day.


My struggle must be against self pity, among other things.

So, every thing's the same, but somehow everything just got harder, too. I'd best be casting myself upon God's mercy in that case, I suppose.

There's nothing much worth saying coming from my direction. I keep debating whether I need to quit the internet for Lent. I'm still thinking about it. Have not decided yet.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Forgiveness

Today is Forgiveness Sunday for Orthodox Christians.

If I have sinned against you, my brothers and my sisters, in ANY way, please forgive me a sinner!

May God bless our Lenten journeys and always draw each of us closer to Himself.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

On my mind

Today is one of those days when I'm having trouble getting going. I'm grumpy because I woke up at 3:45 am and only dozed fitfully with weird dreams after that. My own fault, totally. I shouldn't have had that second glass of wine. Sigh. That's what it does for me.

So, I'm head-achy, been up since six to prepare for my niece, who arrived somewhere around six-twenty. She's getting heavier every day. And is very wiggly and eating lots more. Going on three months old now. Taking care of her and homeschooling my kids are my two big triumphs in life: the things that remind me that I'm slowly getting well.

But I never really have really good days. I just kind of ache along. And then, when I've used up my limited allotment of energy each day (which, since I'm typically doing a bit more, is at the same aproximate time I used to loose my energy: early-mid afternoon) I'm done for.

My poor priest thinks I'm worse off than I am, because he only ever sees me on Saturday evenings and Sunday mornings and is therefore convinced I'm practically wheelchair bound, since I hobble in there on Saturday evenings on a cane, having done my grocery shopping earlier on a typical Saturday and thus used up ALL my energy and then some. I also can't stand for long periods of time, so the cane comes along on Sunday mornings as well. Lately my hip has been funny. It makes things look perhaps worse than they are, but it's still somewhat of a necessity...for walking when I'm exhausted, and for longer standing otherwise.

So, I was going to go to the doc yesterday for some more medicine, but weather changed those plans. I rescheduled for next week, and that's OK. And the thing is, even though at first I was grumpy about the weather cancelling my plans, I also had an unction service to go to yesterday evening. It seemed like God might have been saying to me "Me first"...

Which got me thinking: We pray daily "Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done...", and yet when things don't go my way, I get grumpy? Perhaps I really need to embrace something that very well might turn out to be God's will, after all, as I go through my life and things don't always go as planned.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

I got tagged!

It has been so long since I've sat down and read through my stash-o-blogs that I have bookmarked, that I did not know I'd been tagged. But it's not too late for this odd little meme, I hope.

Peculiar Me (six peculiarities)

1. I'm very picky about my bed time ritual: I have to have the covers and blankets perfectly straight and up to my chin with the sheet folded over the edge of all the blankets so my chin skin only touches smooth cotton. And the blankets have to be heavy.

2. I like being home better than anywhere else.

3. I don't like eating food I did not cook...from scratch. (This comes, no doubt, from all my health issues and food allergies...I've gotten paranoid in the last few years. I WILL eat food I didn't cook, of course, but it usually has to involve an embarrassing interview with the cook to find out ingredients, etc. Blech.)

4. I HATE driving.

5. I MUST be on time if it is at all within my power to be so.

6. I used to consider myself to be very "low maintenance" but now I realize that is so false as to be ludicrous, and I'm about as high-maintenance as they come. (Here's where my mother is probably rolling on the floor, laughing hysterically at my former delusions.)

Oh, to be a saint!

Heaven can be touched, it is nearer than we know
and I think the appearing of Christ will be a universal and simultaneous bursting through...like every cell of this earthly existence rupturing simultaneously to reveal the greater reality of God's Kingdom that lies just beyond our sinful physical eyes. The veil is so thin. It is so very very thin.

And I think that the appearing of Christ today, whether He comes again in glory now or later, can be a bursting through from heaven into and through the lives of His people, His agents, His saints.

The Theotokos, when she bore God in her womb threw and gauntlet down for the rest of us to pick, up: A challenge for us to rise to. Polycarp, submitting to tortures, Peter crucified upside down, Paul in chains, preaching, beheaded, Photini telling others and dying in a well, Mary living on air, prayer and the Holy Eucharist in the desert of repentance, Anthony in silence, Seraphim in his woods, Xenia in her foolishness, and Olga with her needles and potato pancakes and healing hands...these are the ones who teach us about what is really real.

And anything other than an intentional cultivation of this awareness...until it is a constant knowledge, a LIFE that I do not forget, an embrace of Christ with every breath, a longing for Him, continuous worship, continuous service, constant prayer...anything less is more the fool, stupid me, wasting my time.

Because really....once we've tasted heaven, what else IS THERE?????

Fun Sub Picture!


I was looking for some information on North Pole expeditions this morning, and came across this very very cool picture of the Submarine Charlotte AT the north pole. They busted through more than sixty inches of ice, and the crew members got out and played for a while. The ship was on her way from Pearl Harbor to Norfolk, VA.

How cool is THAT??????

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Electric Youth!

Today we created a working telegraph. It's a simple concept, really. We had a kit.

Create an electromagnet by winding wire around a nail. Attach one end of the wire to a battery (with a big rubber band), and the other end to a paperclip attached to a brad on a piece of cardboard. Bend the wide end of the paperclip up so it makes a switch you can press down...onto a second brad. Attached to this second brad is another wire going to the other end of the battery. Insulated, except for the contacts, of course.

The thing about electicity is that it always is a circut, either open (off) or closed (on). When you flip a light switch, you are either opening the circuit to turn the light off, or closing it to turn it on. Same with an appliance plugged into the wall. You tap into a circuit and then close it by flipping your hair dryer switch...and the motor starts.

The thing that makes it a telegraph, is the the electromagnet (nail wrapped in wire) is sticking into a foam block. Next to it is a paper clip with one end straightened and the other end bent and hovering over the top of the nail, also sticking in the foam block. When the circuit is closed, the paper clip taps the top of the nail because it is magnetically attracted to the electromagnet.

Pretty cool, huh?

Then we played with morse code.


.--/.//..../.-/-..//..-./..-/-.//

Last night two of my kids made a working motor all by themselves. Wouldn't it be nice if the motor could actually DO someting besides wiggle? Perhaps someday we can take these concepts and figure out a way to hook the TV up to a stationary bicycle.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Why Not?

Why not come home from school and go straight to your room and not tell anyone you are home?

Why not wear your favorite hat everywhere whenever you are not in school?

Why not hide under the table reading a book when you don't know how/don't want to socialize in Church?

Why not sit in the dry bathtub, fully clothed, reading a book because the light was on in the bathroom and it was too dark to read elsewhere in the house?

Why not hit yourself when you are angry instead of hitting the other person?

Why not swallow green peas like pills to fulfill the dinnertime veggie requirement?

Why not read along in the Spanish Vespers book instead of the English one, just because it's there?

Why not be best friends with your kid brother?

Why not have unmitigated empathy for another person?

Why not be so innocent that teasing is off your radar screen?

Why not describe choir music as "pink"?

Gosh, I love that brain!

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Clothes Party!

You know those blouses that hang in your closet, that every once in a while you try on, and it's too tight across the shoulders...barely, or you look down and realize that a person with your figure should NOT be wearing ruffles down the button placket of your chest not matter that it DOES say jjill on the label? Yeah.

And the skirt that, while it fits you is just not quite the right length, or the right cut or something?

Today I went through all my clothes. I was ruthless. Stuff that was so far out of style as to be embarassing went in one stack. (You all remember the skirts in the late 1980's with the horizontal stripe along the hem? Yah!) Stuff that any self-respecting 37 year old just should not wear...especially not a self-respecting permanently plump 37 year old...you know, the tops that would be cute if they had an extra three inches at the bottom edge to that your belly does not accidentally show...and one relatively new chartreuse sweater that theoretically I like but in reality is just a smidgin too tight...the weensiest hair. That stuff went in pile number two.

The nice thing is that I got a huge bag of stuff ready to pass along to someone I know. I tried to cull the stuff I KNOW she'd hate. But there are still some doozies in there that she'll probably cull...but it's a place to start. Nothing like a bag of hand-me downs, given or received!

The other nice thing is that I had forgotten that I owned so many cute spring/summer skirt and colors and prints that I love. And a whole stack of various pastel colored cardigan sweaters that coordinate nicely.

All I need is a pack of brown Rit dye to transform one unfortunate colored t-shirt dress into something darker, and some elastic to transform one linen sheath dress with an unfortunate slit up to the thigh into a straight skirt, the slit of which will only go to my knee. Been done before. And perhaps a few cream colored t-shirts to round things out nicely.

Now I'll just sit here drumming my fingers until spring arrives.

Snow Days

Lots of cozy indoor time this week. School has been cancelled, all but half of yesterday which my dd did not attend since I took her to the doctor and when we dropped her off at school they told us that it was about to be let out so I may as well take her home. Fun stuff!

I was able to hit the library after my chiropractor visit yesterday (maintenance...my back has NOT been hurting since using the measures I blogged about a few weeks ago, thanks be to God!) and get some light reading and videos to watch.

If anyone likes British Comedy, I highly recommend the BBC series Jeeves and Wooster. Too, too funny. My ten year old and I were enjoying season two yesterday, and she was spot on with her plot predictions. When I complimented her (she has a knack for literary analysis) she rolled her eyeballs and said: "If you do enough reading you start to see PATTERNS, Mom!"

I have been staring at the walls lately, unable to get myself in gear, among other things. I know what that is. It's called depression. I'm going to the doctor next week. The old brain chemicals need some help, methinks. Blah.

I want spring.

Monday, February 05, 2007

The Mystery of the Missing Zinc Pops

My oldest, being the warning label reader that she is, decided to forego the scary Multi-symptom Cold Relief medication she seems somewhat in need of. I reached into the medicine pantry and pulled out a bag of zinc pops. At least she could do something to boost her immune system, right?

Wrong.

The sealed wrappers were perfectly intact, with the pop-sticks sticking out of them. But the zinc pops were MISSING. Just a few crumbles. There were no crumbles in the bottom of the bag that would suggest they got somehow crushed and spilled. Only two zinc pops remained. Upon close inspection, these offered us a clue about the missing pops.

The kids and I had a very very good laugh at the thought that the members of our local ant colony will have good immune systems this winter.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

How Nerds Watch Football

So, my family decides to watch the Super Bowl today. Before today, we barely even knew WHEN the Superbowl would be playing. I caused some chuckles at the grocery store a few weeks ago when I was overheard speculating with my eight year old son that the Super bowl must be that weekend based on the proliferation of chips etc. in the center aisle displays. Silly me!

So, today, after taking a nice long post DL nap, I got up and the pre-show was on TV. Wes was home from his portable office (Laptop at the library) and I made a pizza for the others. Lucky me, some two-meat chili was already lurking in my fridge. I pulled out a bowl of Fritos, some pork rinds, and made up a bit o' guacamole and some diet rootbeer floats all around and we had ourselves an impromptu family football party.

Unfortunately, I was busy with the pizza in the kitchen when the Chicago Bears scored a touch down on the kickoff. I figure that is what instant replay is for. My favorite way to catch a game...actually, that's how nerds watch football.

We sit in the living room with a feast of food on the coffee table. We read books, and when the play by play gets animated and the crowd gets loud, we look up and catch the cool plays on instant replay. For one thing, the cameras are at a better angle the second time around. For another, we get to multitask.

And of course we all watch the commericals. Unless they are for Bud Light. Those are proving to be crass.

Well, here I am, blogging live from my armchair in front of the super bowl. It's almost time to turn off the TV for the half-time show. After all, we do have children in the room and we have our standards. But it's nice to know the artist formerly known as the artist formerly known as Prince got his name back.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Today

Today I gave two hair cuts to my guys, helped my dh with a business decision, then went grocery shopping...bought my very oh-so-holy-local-happy-chicken-eggs and some organic veggies at the local health food store coop. Then headed over to the BEAST for the rest of my stuff. Unfortunately the meat I bought was
animal concentration camp meat, but oh, well. I'd be more of a vegetarian if my health would allow. As it is, my priest says to follow docs orders, and so I eat meat. All...the...freakin'...time. Yes, folks, it is possible to get sick of meat.

Got a crock pot of chili on for later tonight. Then I HAD to sit...for a long time. (Fibro happiness).

So I watched Sabrina (the one with Harrison Ford and Julia Ormond that was made in 1995). I like watching 90's movies. In some ways I think I'm sort of stuck in the 90's with my clothes. I've just not gotten myself updated. And who cares, right? Not like anyone is looking at me, and besides, all the clothes nowadays are just slightly sluttier recycled '80's looks. Two years from now we'll be back into the 90's and I'll fit in again.

But I like romantic movies and Sabrina's a goody. I picked it up at wallymart (ref. above as the BEAST...666 and all that) for a mere pittance...on some cheap valentine's rack of romantic movies. I could have gotten Roman Holiday but I can't stand the way people talk in old movies. And I don't like the sound tracks, either.

What I really wanted to do was go do some thrift store shopping. I could have squeezed it into the budget if I'd opted not to buy the organic veggies. But I have absolutely no regrets. The veggies will be nourishing and good and better for me than any used stuff from the thrift store.

I know I wrote one day about this...about making choices, about cutting back in some areas to make more sustainable food choices. I've been learning to do that here ad there. Today the rubber met that road, I guess. A bit. Poking along in that general direction, at least. Now I'd better go eat a nice big salad.

Friday, February 02, 2007

Oh, the irony!

I'm giving up coffee...even the decaf kind. Actually, I've switched to decaf. Drink about a pot a day.

Today I decided to look it up at Atkins.com to see if it has any carbs. (Surely not! I thought).

Yikes! .8 carb per 6 oz....WHO only drinks six ounces of coffee???? Not me, that's for sure. I drink about ten times that much. And eight uncounted carbs (not that I'm really counting, but sort of roughly keeping tabs nonetheless) can push a person from weight loss into maintenance. This might explain some of my frustrations with this low carb diet my doc has me on. I'm on it for hypoglycemia control and pain control, but since it's so restrictive, I may as well loose some weight, right? Well, that part's been really frustrating over the past two year, so much that I keep liberalizing the diet while counting calories, but loosing the pain control benefits it offers.

I can definitely tell a difference in my pain levels and energy levels when I"m doing this versus not. So I must do this.

And yet, the name of my blog shall remain the same. Even though coffee is no longer such a defining thing in my life as it was four years ago when I started blogging under this address.

Course, I think I also shouldn't be eating deep fried funnel cakes every day, either. I think I'll save them for a Pascha treat!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

LIz want to know...

if anybody's home....?????

Yes, I'm very much home...and pretty much nowhere else except grocery shopping and Church on the weekends. Kids are busy in home school, I still try to get a walk in now and again when it's not too cold. Brrrrr. This weekend will be too cold.

Currently I have a sleeping two and a half month old niece draped across my lap whilst I type on the keyboard. (AWWWWWWWW!)

Just been focusing on doing each thing that needs doing.

The depression was ALL PMS related, I"m afraid. Oh, look, that will be coming round again in a few weeks. Be forewarned.

And for hypoglycemics and low carb dieters everywhere, I have modified a recipe I found on-line to come up with:

FUNNEL CAKES!!!!!

An inch or so of hot oil in a sauce pan.

1 T. butter, melted
2 eggs
1 scoop vanilla sugar free protein powder (mine is whey)
artificial sweetener to taste (8 drops of stevia, here)
1 lid of vanilla extract

Mix until mostly not lumpy. Plug a funnel with your finger and pour half the batter into it. Release batter over oil in swirling motion. Let fry until golden brown, then carefully flip with a fork and spatula. Remove when done.

Repeat, as the batter is enough for two funnel cakes.

Only four carbs if you don't use splenda...for BOTH funnel cakes. 37 grams of protein.

One could do worse. Fat grams, you say? How many fat grams????? Only God knows!

Now, be forewarned...if you are a normal food eater, these funnel cakes will be slightly off...but if it's been so long since you've had a donut that you forgot what it tastes like...then these are SOOOO GOOOD!