Showing posts from September, 2006

Better day

Today is really quiet. I went to the dollar store to buy a one dollar journal in order to copy an Akathist that I really like: Jesus, Light for those in Darkness

I know it's sort of weird but I like to have stuff written in my own handwriting sometimes. It's a slow process but helps me to own it, and to pray.

A bit of work is coming dh's way this week, so that is encouraging. And, upon looking at the classifieds again yesterday we saw something that was totally missed upon first perusal. Who knows what may yet pan out, eh?

One more thing

Chilly house. Furnace did not kick on when we adjusted the thermostat. Just. what. we. need.

Bad bad day today

Nothing bad happened, but I'm just stressed about the joblessness. And tired. And hurting (fibro: stress makes it much much worse). I had a nice hard crying jag this afternoon. Then I prayed for a bit. Then I went shopping.

I got groceries. Chocolate sugar free ice cream: necessary. I wonder when I'll be able to go grocery shopping again. Thinking about the widow that the prophet stayed with, whose food did not run dry. Trying to find opportunities for giving. Seeking to obey God in all things. Will God care for me, too? Not like I can "earn it"...whatever. Often I think I must either be being tested like Job, or beneath God's notice. Why is life so often hard, and so often (pardon my french) shitty?

Dh says he'll go and try to get a 2nd shift warehouse or factory job tomorrow, and keep up his job search during the day.

I took dd in for her check up yesterday and then when I dropped her off at school got to witness her being teased in t…

Dreams of German Food....

I had visions of a nice beef and mushroom hunter sauce over linguine noodles.

Instead, the results were less than stellar. I made a few mistakes, and the sauce ended up a grayish color, like a bad-weather day in the land o' bland.


spoon full of minced garlic
pre-cooked ground beef
dried herbs from my friend's garden
flour for thickening

What I did:

sautee onions, add in mushrooms, beef, garlic, salt, pepper, herbs, cook until hot and onions tender, taste, be dismayed, add more salt and pepper, add some wine, watch onions turn grayish purple color, decide it needs more liquid so add some water that had flour whisked into it, watch it turn into grayish elmer-glue-like concoction with onion and beef.

Oh, disaster. I remembered something from a cooking show I accidentally watched in a motel room one time (we are on the road trip cable plan) that said fat brings out flavor, so I added a few pats of butter to the meaty glue mixture. M…

No way down from this cross

...and I"m tired
in a purple funk/depressed
I pretty much hate myself.
I try to bear up under the load that is my life in a saintly and prayerful way, but I fail miserably time and again.
tired of uncertaintly
tired of being in pain
tired of functioning with not enough resources (physical, financial, energy, name it)
tired of stupid people who have known me for years and still don't GET that while they go on to the next fun thing in their lives, I go home and crawl into bed.
tired of stupid self who treats me like I'm well when I'm sick
tired of dh not having a job
tired of getting up in the morning to cook breakfast
tired of the way it's like pulling chicken teeth to get people to take responsibility for cleaning up after themselves
tired of my hair
tired of the way I look
tired of the fact that each time I bend over to pick something up off the floor I can palpably feel my energy levels draining out of my body (and once it's gone it's gone fo…

Autism Awareness Song

The Word-uh of God-uh for You Today

For some reason "In everything give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." is going through my head.

A slight contrast to my sing-songy "I hate fibromyalgia!" that was going through my ungrateful head earlier. Not that the verse of Scripture is actually making my heart more grateful...but at least I know that the Holy Spirit is not neglecting to show me where my heart SHOULD be, eh?

So, I get to choose....choose....choose. {Forces self to be grateful for many obnoxious things...doh!}

ah....that's better. {checks her fingertips}...still not glowing. {Checks the ground}...still not floating yet.

{Checks her knees}...still not calloused, either.

he he he. Who am I kidding, right? Lord have mercy on me a sinner.

Tofurky Report

Bratwurst-style meatless product....

Is very bready. Like bread with bratwurst spices in it. Not worth the steep price tag (we had a gift card and decided to do an experiment).

If you are vegan have have been forever, this product might be just the thing if you are at a cook-out or somesuch.

If, however, you enjoy meats of all kinds on a regular basis, tofurky will most likely be less than appealing to you and the beans you made as a side dish will gladly get eaten instead.

While eating tofurky we had an interesting lunch time conversation/debate surrounding the possibilities of nanotechnology building better meatless meat products by way of atomic rearrangement. Call it nanomeat. The peta crowd might actually approve. My husband, on the other hand, would rather eat beans and critters, as appropriate.

My thoughts: It might actually be the pharisee phood of the phuture that would enable this hypoglycemic to take Lent to a whole new level....who knows?

May Contain Traces of Nuts


I was at a gathering on Friday night (the ill-fated contra dancing) and got a store bought chocolate chipe cookie off the snack table (way major sugar free diet cheat!). I've eaten store bought cookies before and even though some of them have that little allergy warning, for some reason I wasn't thinking.

Well, for some reason, before biting into it, I turned the cookie over and looked at the bottom. There, right there in the middle, was about an eighth of a peanut. Guardian Angel working over time, I guess.

I need to be more careful.

Call it like you see it....

Paragraph two is particularly "funny":

"Firebombings left black scorch marks on the walls and windows of Nablus' Anglican and Greek Orthodox churches. At least five firebombs hit the Anglican church and its door was later set ablaze. Smoke billowed from the church as firefighters put out the flames

In a phone call to The Associated Press, a group calling itself the "Lions of Monotheism" claimed responsibility for those attacks, saying they were carried out to protest the Pope's remarks in a speech this week in Germany linking Islam and violence.

Later Saturday, four masked gunmen doused the main doors of Nablus' Roman and Greek Catholic churches with lighter fluid, then set them afire. They also opened fire on the buildings, striking both with bullets.

In Gaza City, militants opened fire from a car at a Greek Orthodox church, striking the facade. A policeman at the scene said he saw a car armed men inside flee the scene. Explosive devices were set off…

In which she becomes a wallflower

I fell in love with the idea of contra dancing when I danced at Joy and Josh's wedding in July. I had so much fun.

In August Dh and I had a date to go out dancing but my rib was out of joint and my back generally out of whack so we stayed home.

Tonight was the night. We went. I only was able to dance the first, sit out the second, and then on the third I got pretty dizzy, and by the fourth I had to bail, several minutes into the dance I went staggering towards the nearest wall and just clung to it for a few minutes. I got so dizzy and nauseous that I just about threw up. Dh had fun, though. Everyone else danced for hours. Sigh. Some of the experienced dancers were a true pleasure to watch.

Next time there's open band night, I'm bringing my guitar.

So Much for the American Lifestyle!

I've been thinking about how our food choices affect our lifestyle: fast food, deli meats, sandwiches on the go (even if self righteously made at home), sliced bread, etc. etc. Go go go.

It's been nice this week, with my husband at home, to not have to pack sandwiches for him every day. Now, honestly, I'm fervently prayering for a return of sandwich packing when he gets a job (oh, please God, soon!) but in the mean time it's been lots of soup. Soup is good. Soup is cheap. Soup lasts and lasts...

Soup is not portable, because who keeps a thermos around these days? Perhaps that is an investment worth considering. WHY does all our food need to be so portable? That's what I'm asking.

So, now I hear, speaking of sandwiches, via a New York times article, that bacteriophagic soup is sprayed on deli meats to kill certain bacteria, in lieu of cleaning up processing plants...and this is supposed to be good for us HOW? I think not.

The salmon patties I promis…

Know your Food

In the spirit of sustainability, living and eating closer to one's food sources and due to the fact that we've been studying early American history/lifestyles in our home school, I have composed the following endless ditty: (Really I just wanted an excuse to make chickin noises while picking my guitar):

Chickin in the barnyard
Farmer with an axe
Chickin in the barnyard
Farmer with an axe
Chickin in the barnyard
Farmer with an axe
...Farmer wins

Veggies in the garden
Junior has a hoe
Veggies in the garden
Junior has a hoe
Veggies in the garden
Junior has a hoe
...Bring some in

Chickin in the crockpot
Mama rolls the dough
Chickin in the crockpot
Mama rolls the dough
Chickin in the crockpot
Mama rolls the dough
...Put it in

Dinner on the table
Chickin dumplin stew
Dinner on the table
Chickin dumplin stew
Dinner on the table
Chickin dumplin stew
...Call the Kin

Mama's in the kitchen
cleaning up the mess
Mama's in the kitchen
cleaning up the mess
Mama's in the kitchen
cleaning up the mess
...Begin a…

Hillbilly shoppin' and cookin'

Well, going with the pantry method of keeping the kitchen stocked, in the interest of saving as much cashola as possible (that is, making the amount of grocery money I have budegeted to spend last as many weeks as I possibly can) I have been getting inspired at, as I mentioned before.

I thought I was frugal, but there was so much fat to cut! Now, granted, I have lots of meat I'd bought on sale in the freezer still, but today, planning on cooking all from scratch but NOT planning on mixing my own milk from dry milk powder, I only spend $57.00 for food. That's for six people for a week. Many basics we are stocked up on like oats, and meat and flour and sugar, etc.

I also learned that I can make really yummy split pea soup: sautee an onion, rinse and sort the split peas, add them and eight cups of water. 1 tsp salt, 1/2 tsp pepper, 1 tsp. garlic powder, 1 tsp. cardamon, 1 tsp. sambhar masala spice. Bring to boil and simmer until tender kno…

Might I recommend....

..the Onion Dome? Of course readers of this blog saw it here first...but still. Proud as a peacock that some of my humor got published there.

Also, page 47 of the current Handmaiden isn't half bad, either....he he he.

Just Life

Nothing much to write about.

Dh job hunting/starting his own business....check
Sunday School starts this Sunday and I'm the teacher....check
Way majorly stressed out about everything....check
Trying not to be....check

The matins psalms have been a comfort lately.