Very often I stand in my icon corner and I just wail at God: "He died!!!" 
Like I am in shock and astonished and dismayed and surprised that after all the anticipatory grief, the thing actually happened. 
The fact that it is so jarring has come as a surprise. 
"He died!!!" I cry. 
"He died!!!" 
It is all so wrong.


elizabeth said…
Shock is so normal though. ♡♡♡ prayers...
Shamassy Monica said…
Lord have mercy
Frewtyl said…
I'm thinking of you, and praying for you daily. Unimaginable. It is shocking.
GretchenJoanna said…
Certainly it is wrong, and feels unreal too. The reality of it hits on a day like Thanksgiving, but combined with the unreality, it is sickening.

You are in my prayers.