I'm done. This shirt "fast" has been a good thing for the past two and a
half weeks, but it's over. Yes, I know. I said until the 15th, but I
have to stop.
My reasons:
First of all, mission accomplished, for now. I AM now more grateful and satisfied with what is hanging in my own closet, and that urge to shop shop shop has died down. I will remember this, and pull back on my wardrobe variety in the future when this issue crops up again for me. I know it will.
Second of all, I realize my own foolishness. I put burdens on myself that neither the Orthodox Church nor God is putting on me, and this is a very heavy load indeed. I need to learn to submit myself to a little bit of freedom every now and then. I like rules and I like boundaries, but then I get depressed and go crazy with self imposed nonsense like this. I am broken.
Thirdly: I am betwixt and between. I've lost some weight and most of my skirts from last fall/winter no longer fit me in the same way and everything is saggy baggy and very very frumpy. I'm having a hard time finding replacements. I am also finding that it is TIME to start sitting under my full spectrum light for 15 minutes a day. Depression has started dogging me again. Happens every year.
Fourth: I have enough going on in my life without some silly shirt experiment.
So yes, all of you five readers out there who "know" me by now: You were right. I didn't last. I don't mind. This, too, is good for my humility.
Now, what the heckldydeck am I going to WEAR? ;-)
My reasons:
First of all, mission accomplished, for now. I AM now more grateful and satisfied with what is hanging in my own closet, and that urge to shop shop shop has died down. I will remember this, and pull back on my wardrobe variety in the future when this issue crops up again for me. I know it will.
Second of all, I realize my own foolishness. I put burdens on myself that neither the Orthodox Church nor God is putting on me, and this is a very heavy load indeed. I need to learn to submit myself to a little bit of freedom every now and then. I like rules and I like boundaries, but then I get depressed and go crazy with self imposed nonsense like this. I am broken.
Thirdly: I am betwixt and between. I've lost some weight and most of my skirts from last fall/winter no longer fit me in the same way and everything is saggy baggy and very very frumpy. I'm having a hard time finding replacements. I am also finding that it is TIME to start sitting under my full spectrum light for 15 minutes a day. Depression has started dogging me again. Happens every year.
Fourth: I have enough going on in my life without some silly shirt experiment.
So yes, all of you five readers out there who "know" me by now: You were right. I didn't last. I don't mind. This, too, is good for my humility.
Now, what the heckldydeck am I going to WEAR? ;-)
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In all things we can learn something.
This time of year can be hard.
love to you.
~Rebecca