This post was written last night and posted here this moring, so if the time frame might seem off, that's why.
I weighed in tonight and before tomorrow starts, I have a ginormous pile of weekly points and unswapped activity points that I could be using up. 28 AP's and about 20 WP's.
That's a pretty big binge, if I wanted to.
I wanted to spend a few points this week on something special. A blizzard perhaps, or a cookie from Panera...even though I don't want to go out into the horrid cold winter night and get anything from either place. Not that anyone is open.
I also hinted that my husband could go get Chinese food. Nope. He won't go. I thought of ordering a pizza. I could eat a few slices and count those points and be happy. But no. That did not happen either.
Instead, I found a frozen rising crust four cheese pizza in the freezer. Lackluster. As soon as I'd unwrapped it and stuck it in the oven, I realized that this thing did NOT represent my food bliss. Not at all.
But there it baked and then it came out. I decided to eat one slice, even though I'd budgeted for two in my tracker already. I ate the one 8 lousy point slice. It as NOT worth eight points, let me tell ya!
It was Stupid Pizza. Food eaten just because I CAN????? What is THAT about?????? And it wasn't even good.
I still have points left. I could make myself some cookies, or I could eat a grilled cheese sandwich. But I don't want to.
It's not that I have a burning desire to take the high road. No. If the right comfort food for my foul mood were set under my nose right now, I would eat it. No doubts.
But it isn't and I find that I don't care to work on making food happen right now.
What my body REALLY needs is water and sleep. And I think letting go of those uneaten points is the best thing that I can do.
Because in the morning is a new week, with a new 49 and somewhere in the world, cookies will still exist. And I can still earn Activity Points. And I can still follow the plan.
Since this journey is going to take forever, I might as well stop eating Stupid Pizza.