Friday, January 09, 2009

Sometimes all you can do

is bake brownies, when your day has been so hard and everyone is just stressed to the max. And you can feel those magic chocolate chemicals taking effect, because they do, you know.

And then it's nice to calm down enough to realize that a nice long walk is in order.

And so you go out, and find that while you are walking, your eyes are leaking and you are talking to Jesus and asking Him if he would heal your daughter. Not if He could, but if He would.

And then all you can do is keep walking in the cold and the wind and pray "Thy will be done" and wonder if things will ever get any better.

Sometimes that's all you can do.


maria said...

I pray for you, and admire you, and send a hug.

Laura said...


Ruth said...

Hugs, Alana. Praying with you.

elizabeth said...

prayers this day. i put you and daughter on monastery prayer list btw.

sending you a hug and love in Christ!

missingbecheery said...

Hugs, Alana. I've put you and your family on my prayer list.


Monica said...

Those tears over children... I think they're my only hope of achieving the "necessary suffering of the heart" that Orthodoxy, according to Father Seraphim Rose, requires. May God bless you and your family.