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...Thou Art With Me...

I had the thought this morning that Wes' terminal cancer is saving me. 

I have drawn much closer to God than I would have done otherwise. 

 Since the very beginning of this grief filled "journey" I have had the 23rd/22nd (no matter which numbering system [masoretic or LXX] I use, someone will yell at me about it) in the forefront of my thoughts. 

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, Thou art with me.  Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me..."

and I do know the nearness and the comfort of God.  In fact, it is God's presence that keeps me going each day, and keeps me from falling into utter despair. 

I know that I will be OK, whatever comes, because God is with me.  God is the one holding me and taking care of me. 

And each day that Wes lives longer than expected, God be glorified.  And with each element of struggle and suffering, God be glorified. 

I sure did not imagine having a life of chronic illness, a husband with terminal illn…

The Late Summer of my Life

I was complaining to someone who complimented me that I actually felt like a middle aged hag, and she said the most wonderful thing in return. 

She said "you are in the late summer of your life.  It's not youthful springtime anymore, but you are not into autumn or winter yet, either."

What a beautiful thing to say to me. 

And timely. 

It is now late summer, and in the Orthodox Church we celebrate the feast of Transfiguration.  One tradition is to bring the first fruits of fruit harvest (or anything from the garden) to Church to be blessed and shared around. 

Well, this year, in the late summer of MY life...I have some "fruits" that are ready to go off to college, and in a very short while, I will be an empty nester all of a sudden as three of mine will be going to college all at once.  (B still lives at home with us and will for a good long while due to her autism issues.)

And the thing I was thinking of JUST this week, is that my task is to bring them to God, …