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The Other Side of the Tapestry

Today during Divine Liturgy, I was thinking of my oldest daughter visiting Holy Dormitian Monastery this weekend, and how she wants to be a nun, but how she also struggles with mental health issues and autism. I was remembering when she was 13 and was hospitalized catatonic and out of touch with reality. I then thought of my own journey with ill health that I just can't seem to fix. And then I thought of my husband with deadly life shortening never-goes-into-remission brain cancer, and my son with chronic leg pain...and I asked "WHY Lord? the load is too heavy! Why so much on me, on us?" and the answer came with this thought: look how tender-hearted it has made you. Look at how much you lean on me. Look how much this has humbled you. Remember that arrogant young woman you used to be, so full of pride? Remember how jaded you were after you graduated from Seminary? Remember how you told me you wanted to become holy? And now look at you broken, so…

A Slice of Life

I am determined to start blogging again. About the ordinary things, about life, and also about Wes' cancer journey, and my journey with him.

It's hard.  I'll start with the cancer stuff.  He's doing pretty well.  He just had his seventh monthly chemo treatment (usually the protocol stops at six of those) and since then, he seems to have developed a new allergy.  He already developed an allergy to ivory soap, and now there is a food he is reacting to...hives, itching, rash.  It's either apples (his lifelong favorites) or coffee.  Neither will be easy for him to eliminate.  Obviously his system has reached an end, or at least a new level of not-loving-chemo.  He's done so well for so long.  We have much to be grateful for.

It is difficult to know what the tumor is doing with the MRIs only every three months.  Just a couple more weeks, and we'll have another one, and then we will get a snapshot of where we are at currently.  He's more tired than ever, and …