Thursday, April 28, 2011


Yeah. Pascha happened. Now I'm back on track. Yes, I gained quite a bit of weight. Almost all? Seven pounds in the last two weeks? Yes, it's true.

This is what not tracking for a week, and having a few bad weeks before that where I half tracked, will get me.

But it is a new beginning and I will NOT give up. I have not given up. I did not give up.

It's just that Pascha happened and my sleep got all topsy turvy and that has made all sorts of other things irregular and I am SO READY to be tracking again. Enjoying it, actually.

I feel more secure this way. And that is a load off my mind.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Burn it and Earn it

Well, I managed to lose weight this week (1.2 pounds). I had a little chat with the WW leader and asked for her advice: What do I do if I have a really really bad day, and blow it really bad? Do I ditch all the weekly points and limp along for the rest of the week without using them, or do I pick up the next day and start fresh and still have my weekly points? She told me to do the latter. Good to know.

I did not think I'd lose weight this week because I sort of blew the weekend, what with the AHG camping trip and all. But I guess my workouts and choices in general combined to make it an OK week. I definitely want to track better in the coming weeks.

I have also hit my own personal wall. I'm starting to bump up against the reality that I have big food issues and compulsive eating and I have to deal with the emotional aspects of why I'm overweight (emotional eating, compulsive eating, stress eating and I MUST learn to deal with emotions in non-food-related ways...BUT HOW?????). By now that the program does not feel like a fun game anymore, but rather like WORK (I still like it but it's pain-in-the-butt factor has dramatically increased here lately). Work is not a bad thing. I'm learning to embrace the work, to set goals and find ways to meet them.

One thing I'm going to do is pay myself to track. Here is my "Burn it and Earn it" plan:

For each day that I track, I get a dollar. If I track perfectly all week, I get to keep those seven dollars, regardless of whether I've lost weight. The tracking habit is the thing.

IF I do not track perfectly all week, I get to keep the dollars for the days I DO track IF I LOSE WEIGHT and ONLY if I lose. If not, I don't get to earn those dollars.

My initial thought is to save up and earn a serger this way, but it might be that I really need that serger before the weeks will go by to earn it this way. If I get a serger for my home sewing business before then, I will figure something else out that I really want and try to earn that thing.

So, that's my plan to keep myself on track with tracking.

So far, I'm down 15 pounds from my all time high weight that I'd hit last fall. Down about 13 pounds since starting WW. Happy progress!

Friday, April 08, 2011

Weigh in Report after a crummy week

I really struggled last week with food cravings, urges to compulsively eat and too many glasses of wine (too many from a Weight Watchers perspective, not from a drunken sot perspective).

Well, yesterday I faced the music, and found I'd gained a mere .2 pounds. I'll take it. Mild punishment, indeed!

And my workouts are progressing very nicely. I designed a lovely 30 minute "dumbell circuit" workout where I alternate between weights and the rebounder. AND I've bumped up my dumbells to eight pounds since the five pounders I started out with seemed too easy after my initial soreness wore off.

I decided to start training for a 5K which will be on May 22, so I'm going to be doing some walking workouts in addition to the cardio/weights.

I promised you all I'd share this workout with you, and so here it is:

Each exercise is done continuously for 30 seconds, followed by 30 seconds of jogging in place on a mini trampoline (or on the floor, or one could use a step, and step up and down).

Equipment I use: 8# dumbells (or whatever is appropriate), mini trampoline, and a chair. And music certainly helps. At my house I do this workout in the kitchen so that I can watch the timer on the Microwave oven clock to switch activities at the right time.

1. Alternate shoulder press (shoulders)
2. Simultaneous curls (biceps)
3. Right side, overhead triceps extensions (triceps)
4. Pencil Squeeze (back)
5. Counertop pushups (chest/arms)
6. Squats (butt and thighs)
7. Calf raises (calves)
8. Side lateral raises (shoulders)
9. Alternate hammer curls (biceps)
10. Left side, overhead triceps extensions (triceps)
11. Simultaneous upright rows (lats)
12. Countertop pushups (chest/arms)
13. dead lifts (leg/butt)
14. plies/calf raises (calves)
15. Alternate front raises (shoulders)
16. Alternate curls (biceps)
17. Right side, chair rows
18. Right side, triceps push backs
19. More wretched pushups
20. seated wall press (legs and butt killers)
21. toes in calf raises.
22. simultaneous shoulder press
23. simultaneous hammer curls
24. Left tricep push back
25. Left chair row
26. More stankin' push ups.
27. Squats, again.
28. Crunches
29. Leg lifts
30. Just stay down and do some more abdominal work until the timer goes off, fer cryin' out loud because you are too tired to get back up again.

Google will most likely be your friend in helping you find out what these exercises are. I think weight lifting is fun and a relatively painless way to get some total body fitness happening. One can be deliberate and precises and track one's progress in a systematic way. Good music will stave off the utter boredom of it all, and with enough consistency, one can carry more groceries, and stuff, and look like She-Hulk. What's not to love about that?

Monday, April 04, 2011

Dear Knees,

I'm sorry I've done this to you. You hurt. I know you do. You have to haul all this extra weight around and you just don't like it. You don't like it when I exercise, but I have to, so that eventually you won't have to carry such a heavy load. You especially don't like stairs. I'm so sorry I thought I was invincible and that there would be no consequences to each individual choice I made.

But I know better now.

Each choice I made is added to each other choice I made. And now you hurt.

Dear Knees,

I'm so sorry.

I'm trying to fix it. You inspire me and motivate me to fix what's broken about me, so that you won't be broken.



Sunday, April 03, 2011

Today I Blew It

Tomorrow is a new day and I will begin again with counting points.

White-Knuckling It

Look what I found at the thrift store yesterday!

...along with a large George Foreman grill in pristine condition, a white comforter, also in pristine condition, and a copy of the classic book The Jungle, by Upton Sinclair, oh...and some dinner plate. I'm forever collecting random dinner plates in various blue and white patterns for my "country eclectic" dining set. These five are scalloped white stoneware with little blue flowers. Pretty much perfect, if you ask me.

I've hit my first big mental dieting wall this weekend. It all started with me working too hard yesterday and getting over tired. I thought I was over all that over-tired business, but apparently not. Between the errands I ran in the morning, the concentrated sewing I did in the afternoon, and the kitchen work I did shortly before Vespers yesterday, I was dead on my feet by the time vespers came around. Managed to put on a brave face and go. Then Wes and I were supposed to go out on a little date, and we did but I was miserable and not feeling well, so home we went and I crawled in bed with chills and did not even brush my teeth, since I fell asleep reading in a matter of moments. This never happens to me....except it did.

This morning I woke up wondering what to do and Wes said: Extreme rest for you. Stay in bed. So, here I am at home again on a Sunday morning. I'm not going to lift a finger at all today.

And when I get over tired, I want to eat. Unfortunately, I fell into a bowl of koliva (boiled wheat with raisins, cinnamon, graham cracker crumbs, powdered sugar and candied almonds which is brought to Church and served as a memorial when someone has a memorial prayer service for someone who has died) that I had made for a friend whose mother had recently died. Having NO IDEA how many points is in that stuff, and being very tired and hungry I just at some of it. And then ate some more. And then went to Panera where I had a half a veggie sandwich and a bowl of black bean soup and some of the bread, but not all of the bread, and 1/4 of a strawberry scone when I gave half of my half to Wes.

And then when I got home I had to sample some bites of the cheesy noodle casserole I'd prepared for the kids and a bite of the pizza Eric had made for himself. I wanted more than the couple of bites I took...lots more, but the fact that I ate any at all is...horrid, to me. And I was not even hungry.

I think falling asleep quickly and early was a mercy because I remember lying in my bed with that feeling that I just want to eat EVERYTHING in the house and making a deliberate choice not to, since I'd already almost eaten everything, as it was.

And that urge is still with me this morning. Forcing myself to be good. And I'm having a really hard time with it. So, here I am, blogging about it.

I want to eat when I'm stressed, and I REALLY want to eat when I'm over-tired. I know this about myself. I hope as time goes by I can develop some helpful strategies to overcome these urges. Today, I'm just going to white-knuckle my way through the day and hope for the best.