I turned 40 yesterday.
I have high hopes that this coming decade will be better for me than my thirties. I dunno. I've heard from so many women that one's forties are GREAT, while one's thirties pretty much bite.
That was my experiene, so I'm hoping, hoping, hoping that the 40's will be better.
Perhaps one of the reasons they will be better, is that I've learned a thing or two, and I'm actually starting to apply these learned things. As with any type of growth, it's indiscernable when viewed up close, day to day, but over the long haul the changes will be evident, I hope.
-I have finally figured out that I am the grown up. And no one is going to wave a magic wand and make me better. I have to take care of myself: physically, spiritually, emotionally, intellectually-all of it, lest I completely go to seed or unravel, or whatever will happen. Self-neglect would be sinning against those around me and against myself, and that won't do.
-I have learned that I can't let my spiritual life drift. It takes constant vigilance and work. Until the day I die I will be working at this process, by God's grace. I have not arrived at anything. I am a work in progress.
-I have finally figured out that it is OK for me to just be me and not to try and fit into a mold or into other people's expectations of me.
-I have evidence that plenty of people love me and appreciate me.
-This is the decade when my kids are going to be grown up and launched. God have mercy and help me with this task and these upcoming transitions!
So, in a nutshell, I'm looking forward to being in my 40's and I have high hopes that I will continue to grow, and be a better and better person, by the grace of God.